Check It Out

I appreciate food, specially those tasty ones that you might grave for from time to another. but since long time, Japanese food wasnt ever of my interest. and i HATED sushi. i hated the way it looked, i hated the way it would smell, i hated the way they would present it. its like i really hate sushi. i have had trials of testing different sushi, but still never even liked it.

but latelly i have tried suchi, to me, its one of its kind. Its the Shrimp Tampura Sushi. i can easily at least say its cooked. and it tastes AMAZING, and a little bit of dipping it in soya sauce. the place where i had it was in Hashi resturant, that is the one in Salhiyah Plaze, infront of Salhiyah Complex. so i really recommend it.

The Movie "Deja Vu" is AMAZING. i loved the story and the way it was presnted.

I just felt today like being food and movie critic :P

so dont forget to check it out. see you later.

العفو و السماح

اتصل صديق بي قبل يومين ، يبلغني أن إجراءاته اللازمة للحج تمت ، و انه الآن على أتم الاستعداد للسفر مع حملة معينه وقع الاختيار عليها من قبل والده ، حدثني و هو في قمة سعادته و رهبته من الأمر بنفس الوقت ، كانت هذه المشاعر واضحة من خلال صوته ، لأنها المرة الأولى له.
لطالما أراد الحج قبل اتخاذ قرار الزواج ، لكنني لا أتوقع انه سيقرر الزواج قريبا .

و أثناء الكلام طلب مني أن "أحلله" أي أقولها بصريح العبارة أنني لا أحمل أي مشاعر سلبيه من الضغينة أو الغضب أو الحزن تجاهه في حال إذا ضايقني في يوم ما . فسألني عن أي موقف قد جرى بالسابق أجبته بأنه لطالما كان صديقا وفيا و مخلصا .

انتهت المحادثة الهاتفية بيننا متمنيا له بحج مبروك و سعي مشكور و ذنب مغفور و طلبت منه الدعاء لأجلي.
أخذتني الأفكار بعيدا بعد المكالمة، لقد جعلتني كلمة "حللني" أفكر مليا ببعض المواقف التي مررت بها خلال السنوات السابقة.
و تذكرت موقفا معينا، أغضبني بشده، و انه يغضبني إلى الآن متى ما تذكرته، و سألت نفسي إذا أتى الشخص المعني بذاك الموقف و طلب مني أن "أحلله"، فهل سأفعل ذالك أم أنني سأرفض ؟؟

أعلم بهذه اللحظة أنكم تتساءلون لما قد أحمل كل هذه المشاعر السلبية بعد تلك الفترة كلها، و لما لا أسامح الشخص المعني ؟ نعم ...نعم ....أعلم كل تلك المحاضرات المطولة عن السماح و العفو و نسيان الماضي للمقدرة على المسير بالحياة إلى الأمام ، لكنني كالآخرين ، إنسان و لست بملاك أو شيطان. و قد يتساءل البعض عن كيفيتي بالحياة و أنا أحمل مشاعر الغضب كلها تجاه ذاك الشخص، لا أعلم كيف!!! لكنني للأسف لا أستطيع السماح أو النسيان بسهولة.

على العموم. لا أنكر حقيقة العفو و السماح قد مرت ببالي، لكنني أدركت شيء ما، أن لكل منا قلب و عقل.
فقلبنا المسئول عن العواطف سواء كانت إيجابية أو سلبية، و عقلنا المسئول عن الأفكار و اتخاذ القرارات سواء الصائبة منها أو الخاطئة.
فقلبي ممتلئ بكل مشاعر الغضب و الكره لذالك الشخص و عقلي يحاول إقناعي بالسماح و النسيان للمضي بالحياة.
للأسف علي الاعتراف، برغم أنني حاولت كثيرا العكس، إلا أنني لا أستطيع السماح أو العفو عن من يخطئ بحقي بشدة، طبعا إنني أتحدث عن المواقف المهينة بشدة بنظري.

إن هذا النزاع ما بين القلب و العقل مثير للجدل، لطالما كانت هناك الكثير من المواقف التي أثارت الفضول في نفسي، فهل أقولها بصريح العبارة أمام الشخص المعني إذا تطلب الموقف؟ أم يجب علي السماح؟ و إذا حاولت السماح فهل سأقدر على النسيان؟ أم أنني سأتمنى له حدوث الأمر نفسه كما حدث معي؟ أم يجب علي تجنب المرور بهذا السؤال بشكل عام؟

يؤسفني القول، و إنها لوجهة نظري، بأننا نعيش في مجتمع اختلط عليه تعريف المجاملات مع تعريف النفاق. و إذا كانت الصراحة مطلوبة، فأين هو الخط الواضح الذي نستطيع منه التفريق بين الصراحة و الوقاحة؟

و إذا استطعنا تحديد الفرق بين الصراحة و الوقاحة، فهل سيكون هذا التحديد عاما على الجميع أم أن مقاييسنا و شخصياتنا ستحدث أيضا فرقا بيننا لقبول أو رفض الحدود الفاصلة بين الصراحة و الوقاحة؟

فما أعتبره صريحا قد يعتبره شخص آخر نوع من الوقاحة. و العكس جائز أيضا.
هل نعبر عن مشاعرنا السلبية تجاه الآخرين؟ أم هل ننضم إلى نادي "مبتسم أمامك و حاقد خلفك"؟

أم هل نصطنع المثالية التي قد تكون نوعا من المثالية الإلهية و نعفو عن كل شي نمر به؟
و إذا قال أحدا أنه سامح مسامحة كاملة، فلما لا يرجع الحال كما كان بالسابق مع الطرف الآخر؟
أم أن القلب مازال متألما للحال لكن تحت شعار "لا يلدغ المؤمن من جحر مرتين"؟؟؟

Human Investment !

People talk about it all the time, thinking hard, doing their best, and watching screens and reading the news papers to make sure that the money they have invested would turn out with a good profit.

You see a red arrow that means your stock is going down you become blue, angry, and sad, you also might reach a level where you think you shouldn’t have invested in this.

While you might see the green arrow that means that your stock is going up, you become happy, cheerful, spreading smiles, and you turn out trusting that stock blindly. And you keep on hoping it would stay that way for the rest of your life. And that’s doubtful!

The idea is investing in something so that people will be happy in the end.

When we get to know people, we start to feel comfortable with some and uncomfortable with others. It doesn’t mean that others are bad; they're just different, most probably chemistry wise.

So those who walk along with each other, due to a certain common factor, would understand each other, maybe not totally, but at least they would become aware of each other's personality. With time, friends start having that un-written contract of friendship, it is an untouchable bond. I would consider that "un-written contract" like an investment, of course, not money related. Simply because we put a lot of mental, spiritual, and physical efforts in that kind of investment, friendship investment.

No one knows if that stock of that friend would lose or win.

You win a friend when you would find that friend beside you after 10 or 20 years of friendship, supporting you as if you're supporting your self, would be there for you in good times and bad times. Trust, honesty, and respect are their common language. At then, you would know you have won that stock of being that someone's friend.

You can simply imagine the opposite when it comes to losing a friend.

Like any other stock, there are factors that help in turning a certain friend's stock to a wining stock or to a losing stock, and that’s a different subject.

There is one factor that should always be taken in consideration, and that is "Time". Only time can tell if you won a friend or not. As funny as it might sound, even when it comes to siblings, from the same mother and father, only time can tell you who to trust and who not to trust. Who would be there for you and who wouldn’t be there for you. It is easy to sacrifice for someone, but its hard to find who deserves it.

Feed backs (Dreams & Hopes)

well well well,

as the title says, feedbacks of Dreams and Hopes, regarding the comments posted.

First of all, im not wishing to be something, cause i already have an aim in my mind, and that includes being my self. but trust me, it is NOT easy to be who you are as "SIMPLE" as it might sound. with no exceptions, we can reach a certain level of the true us, but never a 100%, there will ALWAYS be that thing in you or part of your self that you will NEVER show.

Second: who said i dont thank God of what i have?? i do, and we all should, cause we all will lose it oneday.

Regarding the point of seeing what others have, PLEASE, with all my respect, dont try to tell me that no one does that. if the most religious person on earth had a certain disease, he or she will simply ask God "why me? why not them?". i wasnt talking about something in specific. all people ask "Why?". you can go to psychology books, and see the term "Denial" part of this term asking "why me? not others", thats in cases of dieases and illness ofcourse, the term would be different in other cases, but the question remains the same. you should consider non-materialistic topics too.

Last but not least, let us remember that we are HUMANS, we're neither angels nor devils. so when it comes to how we feel, lets just be honest about it, you be honest with yours, cause i will be honest with mine, but you will never be able to see how i really feel from inside, nor will i when it comes to yours!

Dreams & Hopes

Days go by, days go low and high, some go slow, other days fly. Sometimes we think that the old days were better than nowadays. As we begin to explore life, we set certain aims, targets, hopes, dreams, and wishes in all aspects. But as we grow up, we get shocked with reality, realizing that we have to modify couple of our dreams and wishes, along with some of our aims and targets. Again "some" but not all, but the some we're talking about could mean a lot to a lot of us. Some of those dreams sound to be tailored in a perfect world, for a perfect time and place, though they never can be simpler than they are.

So we discover that they will never come true. But some of those dreams keep on walking beside us, creating a certain type of hope and comfort. It might sound pathetic for some while others accept the idea of dreaming it. Dreams like becoming what we want to be, having something in specific, sharing something with someone, or even a simple dream of loving someone and being loved in return.

And when its bedtime, placing our head on the pillow, nothing but the sound of quietness, nothing but the color of a lightless room, flashes of memory cross our mind, reminding us of our dreams. Dreams that could make us feel better once we live it. And once we know they're just dreams, we would have a heartache. Some consider their dreams as the lightest thread they're holding on to survive this artificial life. And living their "impossible" dreams would be their only saviour.

It isn't easy to grow up expecting to find something that matters to you, and then you discover that you could never ever have it. And it's more painful when you realize that a lot have it, while you and only can not have it, as if you are living the wrong time and place!

I don’t want to under-estimate others, but honestly speaking, don’t you think that sometimes those who don’t even deserve to live have that little thing that you always wished for? And you go like saying "why them not me?"

Its not that I don’t believe in destiny, but it just feels bad. And please who ever says that’s life, I know, but I can not deny the fact of the feeling I'm talking about.Guess the word "envy" is going through your mind!!! Hope not because its not what I'm talking about.

I don’t know if I'm the only one or if there are others who think that life is not like we expected. It lacks something. Life seems like it lacks life!!! We're living life but we're not feeling this life, or maybe some don’t even feel alive!
Because of those mixed feelings we tend to modify some of our dreams, or we simply let them go. After we had a strong faith that someday our dreams will come true.
That is maybe someday!